Things are.....

....still looking good. I haven't had any bleeding or spotting. I am hungrier, but not nauseous unless I really put off eating. My sense of smell is stronger, my neighbor had her lawn mower in the garage and the smell of gas about knocked me over. When doing my workout today I got winded much more easily than usual. Tired, but that's kind of normal for me. Not too hormonal, but with my first pregnancy I was just happy, I didn't get the crazy hormone mood swings that most women get. Oh, how I hope that will be the case this time. The last few nights I've been up to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night. I made my doctors appointment for May 9, I will be seven weeks then so hopefully we will see a heartbeat. I will still worry until I hit that twelve week mark. Last time the baby stopped growing at 8 weeks 3 days, but I had my first ultrasound when I was 9 weeks. I know sometimes they can tell when there is a problem but to my knowledge everything looked fine, just must have been something not visible. But I will feel better if things look good at seven weeks. I am supposed to go visit my sister that same week, the one who is due in June. So, it would be really nice if all is well. If not, I may have to postpone the trip. I have days when I am sure everything will be fine this time around and days when I am certain that I will start seeing blood any moment. I just don't feel the symptoms very strongly, but only being 4 weeks 2 days could be the reason for that. I am not sure if I am deluding myself, but I honestly feel this pregnancy is different from the last one. But, I had strong pregnancy symptoms even the day of the ultrasound last time. Most days I don't make myself crazy, trying to stay focused on taking good care of myself and stay positive. We haven't told anyone yet. I may end up telling my neighbor that I exercise with because some of the 90x programs are too intense for me right now. Not sure I can tackle plyometrics right now! Happy thoughts!

So, it's official......

...... I've had at least ten positive pregnancy tests since Tuesday.  My period was due Saturday the 16th, but I always start testing early. I bought those test strips from Amazon where you get 50 for under $10 so I could test as much as I wanted. I'm fairly confident that I'm pregnant, but I am not confident that I won't miscarry. Part of my crazy testing after I got a positive was to see if the lines were getting darker or lighter. The lines are getting darker, but my breast tenderness has decreased and is not as constant.  Which makes me panic a little. I am trying so hard not to stress and most of the time I am successful. I'll call my doctor's office on Monday and see how soon they will let me come in to hopefully put aside my fears. I was at my parent's house yesterday and my son told my mom that we were having a baby. I hadn't told him yet (so where his idea came from I'm not sure) and my husband didn't even know yet because he was out of town for work; however, I wasn't going to tell my mom first, so I just made a joke and reminded him that it was Aunt T who is having a baby.  I guess I can plead innocence when we announce because I haven't even missed my period yet! Happy Thoughts!

Merry Christmas.....

.....or not? Just realized that if I discover within the next week that I am pregnant I will be due the week of Christmas. For the record, I don't know how I didn't realize this, and while I will be ecstatic to be pregnant I have some trepidation about the timing. I have a sister with a Christmas Eve birthday and it can be difficult. But, if we are blessed with a child that close to Christmas at least I know that our child will be celebrated all their life.
Such a random thought, but I was off a month in my thoughts of when I would be due. I did a pregnancy calculator last night and realized my mistake. For someone trying to conceive sometimes I feel like I am oblivious to a lot. Ignorance as a security net? Not sure how I am feeling about that.